Penalized

Penalized

Heartbeats happen as earthquakes,
fumbled fury gasping for a fight.
Knuckles smashed like crater shakes,
face flung like molotov in the night.

Fingers in eyes rolling those cysts,
rib cage depressed in tight room.
Worry rides a tide of teeth and fists
jaw shoved til chin touches the moon.

Breath bleats an abused hurricane,
shards and spittle riding this scene.
Pounds of haze ensorcel the brain,
a voice box rips from wetted scream.

Mouth shivering like a fresh wound,
the skin as a trap with no escape.
Muscles spasm and tightly attuned,
cheek bone on asphalt’s cold scrape.

One being only with body's tired cry,
penalized myself and don't know why.

EaS

Trench

Trench

Going to break all these bones,
jumped in my deepest trench.
Inner seeping blackness groans,
torso’s heaves, takes in the stench.

Dragged on sharpness, sliding down,
flayed scalp wearing plight’s face.
Crevasse wind is death’s own sound,
claw marks on walls, a previous trace.

Black ragged glistening is not water,
shed during each past self slaughter.
Stone fists collude with my velocity,
can’t bleed enough for self atrocity.

EaS

Too Long

Too Long

Choking upon waking
   breaking dawn’s making
          taking in negativity
   Falling stabs of destiny
       giving almost nothing
Burning all my clothing
          Dying backwards and living
    Floating fluids are stinging
               ripping screams dripping
            Bleeding throat gripping
   sounding depths darkening
                      far too long With No Longing

EaS

Four

Four

I am fine. Yeah, I’m good.
No worries, I’m okay.
Let four letter words,
have their way.
Well, f@#k that s%&t!!
If I may.

EaS

Livid pt. 2

Livid pt. 2
Body seizes the vile energy
Wraps chains and twists tight wire
Pulls with power and encased
Drags emotion through rancid mire

Straighten limbs and tighten sinew
Grimace draws blood from teeth
Eyes darken from hazel to paste
When done, a wreckage I bequeath

Drive down with legs in a rush
Arms harden and poise for a strike
Step rumbles the space in debris
Pain’s warning descends ghostlike

Reason retreats with pitying squeal
Knuckles crush into stone’s scorn
Fists repeat wearing horror’s glove
Sensation altered from the norm

The body steals away from reality
Arms pulls back with ready stance
Forward dash with shoulder lead
Charge with roar in fury’s trance

Impact draws out breath and beat
Yet terror is not yet abated
Sliding down on painted wall
Anger still climbs on will deflated

Anguish tries in vain to reignite
As volcanic tears erupt burning off
Frustration denied and wanting more
This body sits as an empty trough
EaS

Livid

Livid
Bell bangs deep in my being
Nerves roughed and torn asunder
Torrent builds and roils forth
Concussed portions feel its thunder
Travels full bore in act to release
Vibration sounds in concrete bones
Solidity breaches practiced disguise
Chest clogged with howling tones
Veins rage in failing containment
System of pressure gauging at peak
Shivers crack the shaky surface
Mind backs off from a foul reek
Anger and agony make fertile alliance
Intention to strengthen the suffering
Joy and peace deep in the corners
Limits excluded with no buffering
Release arrives with swift motion
Fervor climbs outside its gored skin
Most hide and shun a livid notion
Fermenting more dark festered kin
EaS